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How I personally view myself is very distorted and hard to describe, as if I’ve never really paid much attention to my physical appearance, and I’m disappointed in what the person in the mirror actually looks like rather than what my expectations had in mind. I don’t see that bright young woman who has so much potential, rather, I see an ugly thing that merely exists for the sake of taking up space until they’ve lived out their days on this dismal and desolate planet.

Thick, cranial hair cascading down onto the figure’s neck; appearing more pubic in texture and density, not to mention its dull and faded shade. Its skin, not too light nor dark, is scarred from self harm and harm inflicted upon it by others. The face and collarbone are plastered with blisters and acne, as if the creature didn’t even bother to perform a daily regiment of personal hygiene. Filled with sadness and emotional torment performed by those whom they once loved, soulless dark brown eyes gleam through the looking-glass; hoping that it can escape this never-ending madness. 

I’m afraid that I must stop here, as I cannot even begin to describe my entire body; solely due to the fact that I just cannot bear to fathom the sheer concept of myself as a whole. My internal thoughts, too, are laden with such self hatred and inquisition towards finding myself. Exactly who am I, why must I hide my true thoughts and feelings from others, and how can I muster the ability to break free from this insanity that I’ve created?

These are questions that, unfortunately, may never be answered; whether it be fully or even partially.

  • Mood: Shame
  • Listening to: Katy Perry - Dark Horse (piano arrangement)
  • Reading: nothing.
  • Watching: nothing.
  • Playing: nothing.
  • Eating: nothing.
  • Drinking: nothing.


Andi Jennings
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Hello, everyone. My name is Haru, and I am kind of your average sixteen year old kid. I haven't the best art, but I do my best.

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cityoffog Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the Fav!
cityoffog Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Thanks for the Fav!
iRandomCHIBI Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav
blazeLimit Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the fav!
sailorcancer01 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014  Hobbyist
Hey birthday girl.
many happy returns.  :hug: :happybounce:
Inky-Doodle Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Student General Artist
Thank you for the Fav!
:D :D :D
TheBathwaterHero Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank You for the favorite. By the way Keep up what you're doing it seems like you have a nice touch of style evolving in your work. I'm not going to say it's quite there yet but from what I saw skimming over your gallery it's not going to take long for you to refine it and have something unique if you keep on top of things.
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Gygaxis Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
Glad you liked my Cupcake study~
nikki-nekochan Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2014
Thank you for the :+fav:
Hotaro-sui Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you very much for the fav!
Haha, I like how you have a separate folder everything :iconcoolplz: btw I like nostalgia critic too :dummy:
mjeniffer Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2013
Such a beautiful post.
Wollfisch Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the fav ^^
bushsbunny Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I sent an angel to watch over you last night but it came back.
I asked "why?"
The angel said "angels don't watch over angels."
Twenty one angels are IN your world. Ten of them are sleeping, Ten are playing, one is reading this message.
Send this to ten friends including me. I guess if I don't get it back I'm not one of them. As soon as you get five replies, someone you love will quietly surprise you.
Please read, not joking. God has seen you struggling with something. God says its over. A blessing is coming your way.
If you believe in God send this message on. Please don't ignore it. You are being tested. God is going to fix two things BIG tonight in your favor. DROP everything and pass it on. Tomorrow will be the best day of your life. Don't break this chain.
Send to 14 friends in 10 minutes. It's not that hard.
MissLia500 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013
Thank you for the favourite!! :hug: I hope it's useful!!
Silentyeller Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013
Wow thanks for the points Cutie Surprised, I've never had them before so thank you again very much for sharing that with me Meow :3 , really nice of you Blush 
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